“Be still and know that I am God.” I’m writing this post for those who were on the retreat this weekend, but mainly for myself and others like me who haven’t quite made our peace with that peace called silence.
If truth be told, some of us are afraid of it, while others have pretty much given up on being able to make it happen. Instead of our thinking our thoughts, our thoughts think us. We are their servants rather than their masters.
For 10 years I tried meditating in silence for 20 minutes a day. Spiritual writers I respected suggested this as a minimum. But after 10 years I gave it up. I won’t go into the reasons why. I just want you to know that I’ve had an uneasy relationship with silence for a lot of my spiritual life.
I think part of my problem is that I’ve tended to think of silence as empty space rather than white space. Empty space tends to make me feel lonely and abandoned. I associate empty space with absence rather than presence, with distance rather than communion and communication. Read the rest of this post »